About six or seven years ago, after moving into a new ward, I was walking the halls with my first baby girl I noticed a display case that had a “how to start your written personal history” display. I perused it and thought that “someday” I should do that.
Over the last 10 years since my mom has been gone, I’ve often thought about writing a book about her. I am sure I would learn so much about her that I didn’t already know, but who would really read a book about a normal American girl? Especially one that made so many not-so-good choices in her life?
So then I think about writing my own personal history and as a part of that including some research about my mother. And my other family members for that matter. I don’t know whey such an inkling would occur to me, perhaps it has been a spiritual prompting all along.
I am on Day 9 of the 30-Day Scripture Study Challenge, and one day my question to the Lord was “What should I focus on at this time in my life?” I ended up reading in Joseph Smith- History 1:1-20 and noticed a few things.
- Joseph Smith started out his history with his genealogy.
- In verse 20 we find: It seems as though the adversary was aware, at a very early period of my life, that I was destined to prove a disturber and an annoyer of his kingdom; else why should the powers of darkness combine against me? Why the opposition and persecution that arose against me, almost in my infancy?
This passage seemed to speak also about my own life as I read it, and the Spirit testified that it is true; it seems the adversary has always been working against me from infancy. After reading that I felt like I had a story to tell and a story to share!
I figure blogging is a perfect way to start such a huge endeavor. After all, I am ancient— I have an entire 30 years to write about!! So when time permits, I will add to this series. I am not sure if I will try to go chronologically or skip all around. But I am sure you will find my story to be fascinating. I know I do! I often marvel at how prevalent the hand of the Lord is in my life. It makes me wonder about what He has in store for me.
Feel free to ask questions or make comments along the way. I am sure they will spark more ideas for what to write in my Life Story!
OK, so I am not a morning person. I need a lot of sleep. Still. I often take naps. I never feel like I ever accomplish as much as I want to each day because I always. feel. so. tired.
I have this false sense that if I take a nap in the middle of the day I will somehow feel refreshed and ready to conquer the world once I wake up. But that never happens. And then I still feel exhausted at the end of the day!
So I had a small itty bitty little lightbulb moment the other day. I am going to feel exhausted whether or not I sleep or clean all three bathrooms or cook dinner or not. And I think I’d rather feel the kind of exhausted that I get after whipping the whole house into shape, than the kind of exhausted I get from watching TV, surfing the internet and taking a nap. Plus I feel a sense of accomplishment from the former.
Now if only I could work on redefining what a “good” day looks like! Oh to be a recovering perfectionist instead of a struggling one!
If you are feeling lonely, try going to a tri-stake Relief Society conference with some of your friends, and eating ice cream afterwards!
And then maybe all those wonderful ladies will put together an ongoing Girl’s Night Out.
But don’t forget that the Spirit of God can be with you always, so you are really never truly alone.
Doctrine and Covenants 11:13- I will impart unto you of my Spirit, which shall enlighten your mind, which shall fill your soul with joy.
Doctrine and Covenants 121:46- The Holy Ghost shall be thy constant companion…
Well, at least it worked for me!
Recently I started Wendy Watson Nelson’s 30-day scripture reading challenge from her book Change Your Questions, Change Your Life. The challenge is to start each scripture study session with one question. The one question that is most pressing on your mind at that moment or for that day. Then, having started with a prayer to the Lord to answer your question, you start studying. Before long you will find that your question is answered. You may have a new question every day. Or maybe you will only have a few questions in the 30-day period, or maybe even just one. You are also supposed to record your questions and your answers so you have a record to reflect back on.
I testify that this really does work. I am only on day 4 but I have already seen the fruits of this challenge. I have had my questions answered, or at least I’ve felt that I have received at least a beginning to the answers. I have felt the Spirit more strongly in my life. I feel more confident, which I have to say is something I struggle with. A LOT.
I am pretty sure this is what “they” mean when they say pray with a sincere heart and real intent, study the scriptures with faith. I have felt it. And it has changed the way I will forever study my scriptures. Again, something so simple, yet so big for me. You should try it too!
The Back Story
I just felt like I wanted to tell you a little more about how I stumbled upon this book and consequently this challenge. A few weeks ago, the day before the hubby’s grandmother left after staying with us for four months and getting baptized into the Church, I drove her to get her patriarchal blessing. The whole process took almost two hours and it was an amazing experience, even for me. First the Patriarch took Oma into his office and they talked for quite a while. I stayed in the sitting area that was filled with many different church books and magazines. They talked for over an hour so I had quite a bit of time to read. I read this and that and then I had a feeling that I should read the copy of the Church News he had on the coffee table. I skimmed over most of the articles stopping to read some of the articles more fully. Toward the end of the News there was a very short article about finding your true self. This topic related to some yearning questions I had been having myself. The article sited Wendy Watson Nelson’s book Change Your Questions, Change Your Life. I had a distinct impression that I should read that book. So the next time I went to Deseret Book, which happened to be a few days later, I picked up the book. Had I not had that spiritual prompting I probably would not have bought it since it was almost $30.
A few days after bringing the book home I started to read it. It was ok, but I started to wonder why I was so prompted to read it. About halfway through the book was the chapter about finding your true self. And this challenge was in that chapter. I am not yet finished with the book and I wonder what other wonderful insights it will bring to me.
Once again, the Lord knows this little sheep.
I am feeling very lonely lately. I am surrounded by wonderful neighbors and friends, but none of them seem to really understand me. Actually none of them really seem to like me. I am sure that’s not true, but sometimes it’s just how I feel. I don’t have anyone that I can just call up on the spur of the moment and chat with or invite myself over. And feel like I am not imposing. I always feel like I am imposing. I know when I feel this way I should really reach out to someone else, but just this once I want someone to reach out to me!
I find loneliness to be a big challenge in my life overall. I know that it’s probably a tool the adversary uses against me, but I haven’t found a way to combat it yet. May the Lord turn this weakness into a strength!